The Trials and Tribulations of a Single Mother with Twins

Twins: The Pregnancy and the Aftermath

Week 19 and On

Okay, yes I have been bad and not made a post in well over a month. I have been so exhausted from moving, and then getting set up in my parents home again, doing stuff around town to be some what useful to my parents, seeing the doctors for EVERYTHING about the twins and my health. It has been a busy month to say the least.

Since my last post I have seen my GP once (and I see him again next week), my OB once last week and had another ultrasound to check that everything is going well.

When I saw my GP at the end of March, we just reviewed what was planned with my OB two weeks prior, did another check of the heart beats and began to measure how much stomach grew. By this point I was really showing, much more then just a few weeks ago anyways. I was so brain dead that day though. I had barely slept the night before, and everything just ached. So it was hard to focus during the doctors appointment to make sure everything was going well.

At the beginning of April (The 8th to be exact) I took my brother and dad back to where I was attending school and where all my lovely friends are. So I drove some of the way there and back to our hometown but of course I didn't want to push it with the pregnancy and everything. Especially since when I was passing a semi-truck going about 75-80 cause he was loaded up the twins kicked out and then did a tuck and roll towards my spin and didn't come back up until we got to the rest stop 20-25 minutes later. It was kinda funny. Freaky to. But obviously they don't like mommy going fast on the highway!

The next ultrasound I had was on the 12th of April. So I went a whole two weeks without seeing anyone and that. I had some rough days with massive amounts of pain and other days were good. It would vary from one day to the next and I wouldn't know until I woke up that morning if it might be good or it might be bad. Hell I didn't know until after breakfast or late into the afternoon if it was going to endup being bad! Anyways, at the ultrasound I learnt that both babies are now in breech, which would explain for mass amounts of pain I had a few days before hand. So unless Twin A turns back down, things are turning more towards a c-section then to natural birth (boo!).

The following Monday is of course was when my OB told me about the C-section stuff and everything. Which was nice! Why? Because since I reached about 20 weeks, and have been reading stuff online and watching various TV shows and even talking to a local friend who is expecting and due any day, I have felt so noobish and out of the water about what to plan or expect with my own birth! This was even more true after I had a tour of the facilities at the hospital that I will be using when I deliver and our friend was talking about her birth plan. It was like uh.... Birth plan? Okay what the hell is that and am I supposed to have one? Apparently I am. And I am still trying to figure out contractions and braxton hicks. I was in a class through a program for pregnant woman in my town but the class sucked. Like royally sucked so I was still lost. I am now looking at stuff online for information and such. I am still lost somewhat but things will work there way out I am sure.

And the stress still remains of getting all the items. Stroller, car seats, blankets, cribs, everything! It is so stressful and annoying. I hate this in all honesty because I am so broke cause I can't work without causing myself harm and therefor can't make money to get what is needed for the twins. I have a small pile of stuff but not enough in the long run. I have no car seats to get them home in. I have no crib or cribs for them to sleep in. I have no diapers. I have no wipes. I have no pump to get milk out of my breasts when they are over producing (if that even happens. We might have to supplement with formula if I can't produce enough milk). Its just like I don't know what to do. I hate having to lay this burden on my parents. Or anyone. I am so independent that it is killing me inside that I can't even provide for my own kids. I am just ugh. My mom did have my do up a baby registry( and if that doesn't work just look under my name friends of mine and family of mine that read this) and we have thought about having a shower at the beginning of September/End of August before labour day weekend so that my friends from school can come and not have to miss any school, and then everyone can see the twins and I will be all healed up. And showers are  more fun when you get to hold the babies and not just see the massive belly.

Well thats all for now. I will try to be more regular but no promises. Energy levels vary so writting avalible faulters also then.

18 Weeks
The eighteenth week of the pregnancy has been filled with both pain, joy, stress and everything else in between.

It was moving week so that entailed packing up everything, cleaning and well getting my stuff into a storage locker so that I could move back to my parents house and be with them through out the remaining twenty weeks of my pregnancy. Yes, twenty or so weeks. It feels like only yesterday I found I was pregnant, let alone 9 weeks pregnant. Life changes so fast you just don't know what to do sometimes.

Moving went smoothly, for the most part. I got everything packed up, cause this move wasn't as frazzled and rushed as my last one. And it wasn't me fighting to get my stuff in order to move out. The only problem came when I tried to get rid of my futon and the person who said would come take it bailed on me after he told me, and in front of 5 other people that were mutual friends of ours, said he would come around noon. Instead he tells me at 9pm. Um, NOOO! I needed to be out of town by then to head to the next town over for my ultrasound that is the next morning and to be checked into our hotel and crash early enough that I am not a zombie the next day. Well I was pissed. And I will admit I wanted to murder the s.o.b. But whatever. Luckily my roommate/landlady took it cause she is selling the place and needed something in the room to make it look filled. YAH! Thank god for her.  And thank god for Blackout who came and helped out for a few hours with packing and moving stuff to the storage locker! I am so grateful for her, she is truly an amazing friend and I am so lucky to have met her. So within 4 hours my place was emptied, cleaned and done with. Everything into a storage locker or into the family vehicle to come home.

We went for dinner with a family friend that was passing through town. He is a trucker and he was stopping in the down as he hit his point (no more driving for a while). It was good and helped us secure the roof rack as we were supposed to be going into rain or snow. That groundhog lied by the way as spring has not come yet and it is the middle of March essentially. And then we were on the road to the next town for the ultrasound! The hotel we stayed at was so bloody comfortable! And so pretty! The courtyard was like a rain forest that surrounded the breakfast restaurant, the buffet and the pool, with a creek running along side it. It was so relaxing and inviting, it was like I was on a tropical vacation, even if only for a night. And the bed was like a cloud. Mindya I had been sleeping on futon for a few weeks after sleeping on my good serta bed so this bed was like heaven! And the pillows were very comfy to. I wanted to highjack the pillows. Hehe. I was out within 10 minutes of the light going out. It was probably the best sleep yet.

So the next morning, me, my mom and my brother had a really good and made from scratch breakfast at the restaurant in the hotel. I had pancakes and bacon. The pancakes were HUGE! Like with a circumference of at least 3inchs! It was good though, definitely filled me up for several hours. After breakfast I reorganized the family vehicle after we unloaded what was needed for the night. And then it was off to the ultrasound. The 18 week ultrasound, well 18-20 week ultrasound.  It was to check everything, the development of the twins, how the heartbeats were, to make sure that there was no abnormalities in formation and to find out the genders!

Everything looked amazingly healthy. They are even the same size! And have the same heartbeats, which is really good since most times with twins, one twin gets more nutrients and food compared to the other but luckily with mine they are both getting the same amount. Development of the spine, brain and heart and very good and perfectly normal and healthy. And it is for sure now identical twins. And boys. Which kinda sucks cause I really wanted girls but whatever, I will have two little angels that will love me unconditionally. I see it as though God is giving me a break for all the pain that has been put into my life with men. Now I get two boys that will forever be mine and I will not have to face so much pain.

So it was a good bill of health for the twins. I have spoken with my new OB/Gyn and we have made a game plan for the rest of pregnancy. My appointments with the OB/Gyn and with my family doctor will be staggered, so every two weeks I will see one of them. Ultrasounds have been booked for the next 5 months till I deliver, but it could go up in number of times there are ultrasounds since I am having identical twins. Come 24 weeks I will be on more of a bedrest, though right now my parents are essentially putting me onto bedrest to keep the swelling down with my feet and the bleeding. At 28 weeks I will be given two steroid shots to help the babies lungs develop faster and so that if I go into labour before 35 weeks it is not a huge fear, even though if I go into labour before then UH OH!

I pray everything goes well from here on out. I don't want more problems if any.

17 Weeks
This journal/blog is in a way a documentation of the pregnancy I am now going through.

I am pregnant with twins. TWINS!

I first found I was pregnant when I was 9 weeks, back on December 27 or 28. I bought one of those pee on the stick tests from the drug store cause it had been nagging at the back of my head for a week or two but hadn't put much thought to it. Well the two little lines to say it was positive popped up right away. Within 15seconds actually. I don't think I cried so hard before cause it was such a sudden change to everything going on in my life that I just didn't know what to do. I called my parents and they helped calm me down and everything. But I had to go to the hospital the next day for pains in my sides that were just constant. My friend Alice took me there (and also went with me to the ultrasound later in the week). Nothing they could tell without an ultrasound showed up, except the blood tests that were done just confirmed everything that much more, placing me between 9-20weeks pregnant. That friday, which was New Years Eve, I had an ultrasound in the morning for some of the organs in my abdomen (liver, kidneys, etc.) as well at the uterus. And there was a little blob, a baby. My parents (Maja and Faja) were very excited to have a grandchild coming. My sister was happy that the pressure was lifted off of her again and she could just go gungho on her career (Which she is going to rock at massively!). I have to admit I was scared, but excited at the same time. That evening I told the rest of my friends at our New Years Eve party (FONDUE!) and they were just as excited for it as me, though not as scared as I was.

I didn't know I was pregnant with twins till I was close to 11 weeks, or just after 11 weeks. This was an ultrasound specifically for the uterus. I was staring at the ceiling thinking wouldn't it be funny if it was twins? My friend Lamb came with me to this ultrasound, which was nice to have support there for me. So the ultrasound technician did her dealio while I was staring at the ceiling and then she called Lamb in. I got to the first baby and I started to tear up, seeing the heart beat, its little arms and leg moving around. It was so adorable. Then the technician turned to my friend and said "You are going to want to take her hand for this next part." Lamb thought she was going to push really hard on my bladder, but nope. Instead the screen flips to baby #2, with its heart beating, and its little hands and feet moving. I started balling. Not only because I was having twins, but I couldn't help but laugh slightly because I had just been thinking "Wouldn't it be funny if I was having twins?"  I called my parents as soon as I could after the ultrasound to tell them, to let them know. I remember telling my mom, well more so asking "How do you feel about knitting doubles?" She didn't clue in right away until I told her I was having twins. OMG was what I heard for the next couple of minutes, and she told my dad and he was just as shocked. It was a massive change coming to my life that is for sure.

I started to see the doctor more regular to make sure things went well. I got to here the heartbeats for the first time on January 20th. It was a wonderful thing to hear the heartbeats for the first time. They were very fast heartbeats, nothing like mine. Who knew such small little things could have such powerful heartbeats! And around 14 weeks I felt the first movements, flutters as many call them. It just feels like them doing somersaults more then anything, and twisting and turning. Somedays they are more active then other days, but it also depends on how I am sitting, or laying. And where they are positioned in the womb.

It wasn't until two weeks ago that everything just smacked me hard and scared me, when I was 15 weeks. I had some bleeding due the placenta partially detatching. I was so panicked that I had miscarried, that I had lost the twins, that I would slip into a downward sprial of pain and misery because something that I had begun to find so much joy in, so much happiness in, was now being taken away from me quickly and painfully so. I was taken to the ER by ambulance at about 4:30am. And I got the whole gang out to! I had two ambulances AND fire rescue come to the house for my little thing. Man, do I know how to create a scene eh? But luckily the bleeding had stopped as quickly as it had started. I didn't bleed anymore then what had already come out to soak my underwear and run down my legs in such a scary thing at 5 in the morning. When at the hospital, I had the Garcia double. And by Garcia double, I meant a doctor who really didn't care or do things right. He did a mini ultrasound in the room I was, and we saw that the twins were safe and still moving around. And they were wide awake, mostly from the adrenaline they were getting from me from being so scared and panicked over everything that was going on. Well the next day (friday) at my doctors appointment, I told my doctor. Well he wasn't to happy to hear that a proper ultrasound wasn't ordered and that nothing was done to ensure I was okay, that I was safe and not still in shock before I was sent home 40 minutes after I was arrived. Thank god Tiffy-Bo and Alice came to the ER and I was able to get home afterwords. But my doctor ordered a ultrasound that was done right away that day and showed the partially detached placenta, but showed that the twins were okay and that everything was alright.

Next week I move back to my parents place because after that scare, I can't not have support around me constantly. I was so scared and felt so alone. And the stress of school was just starting to push me down. I went home for a week after the last ultrasound I had and we decided mutually that it would be the best thing for me, and it would also help out my parents a bit (not having to put money out for me since I quit my job, not having to worry about my constantly, I can help out around their house while home). And also I find out the genders next week!!

Till next post, keep going and be strong.


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